I have been waiting for the universe to give me permission to proceed with my life. Waiting for a sign that it was ok for me to be happy again. Waiting for a sign that is was safe.
Those signs can show up in the most unlikely of ways. Everyday you have the power to be someone's sign that they are safe and that they should try something. If you don't think one person can make a difference, you are very wrong.
I think too many of us feel that if we can't change the world with our one time action, then why bother. We are all thinking too big picture. In this crazy fast moving world it is easy to lose sight of the day to day impact you can make & the day to day impact you are already making in the world.
My girlfriend Theresa & I have been plotting & discussing & planning ways to find & live our passion & live the fabulous creative lives we were both born to live; aka day dreaming. One of my favorite things to do with my friends is eat. I love sharing a meal with people I love. It makes my whole meal experience go from nourishment of my body to nourishment of my soul. While sharing a meal with Theresa this summer we both agreed to hold each other accountable for starting one of our projects. She listed off some ideas for me to follow up on to get started.
35 minutes after leaving her, I had already researched Weebly, bought my domain & was setting up the basic front page of my blog. I had been waiting for someone to tell me it was OK for me to follow my passion and that it was OK for me to be a writer.
I remember writing and enjoying writing around the third grade, which is when I remember falling in love with reading. Having a library card was just about the grandest thing I owned and I could spend hours wandering the aisles at the library waiting for the right book to leap off the shelf; and twenty some years later I still lose hours regularly at my local library.
I have been trying to figure out why I haven't been writing for the past 20 years, what has held me back from being a "writer." I have a couple of my journals that I wrote poetry in during my late teens & twenties. It is all horribly sad and painful and yet I am so happy I documented my life in words that take me back to where I was sitting when I wrote them and to remind me how I used my quiet moments alone.
I also have found some of the emails I sent out to all of my friends & family every couple of weeks and months where I detailed my pregnancies and life as a new mother. My emails were the blogs back in the day. I had a personal web site where I posted photos so everyone could share my children's first solid meals & steps.
Blogging is the perfect medium for me because I can create what I see & hear in my head. The music & words & photos are easy to lay out in a share-able format.
Theresa gave me permission and told me I would need to tell her what I had come up with next time I saw her. I texted her after I closed my laptop and told her, "done!". My soul was so ready to get this started that all I needed was one person not telling me it was a stupid idea & not asking me why I thought I was special enough that anyone would bother reading my shit.
All I needed was one person, just casually saying yes you should try this idea of yours.
I have plenty of people who are asking what I am going to do with this and how do I see supporting myself with this? I have no idea. It fills my heart with joy and that is all I need it to do. That is actually a huge fucking job! I have existed for so many years with an empty place in my soul that I couldn't figure out how to heal, then a casual mention to research blogging and now my soul is overflowing with joy! Having this feeling of joy is priceless and a gift in an of it's self. It has raised my energy and is allowing me to reach out to people who need to connect.
I think many of us live unfulfilled because we have been told that if we can find our life's passion it should be something big enough to support us financially. If not, what is the use?
If our paintings can't sale for huge dollar amounts or be sold at all, what is the use of spending all of the money on canvas, good brushes and paint? Or if you can't win on a talent show or aren't good enough for a record deal, why sing? Because you have to, you won't know how fabulous your life can be until you own your passion!
Each of us is given skills and tools to make this world brighter and more colorful and funkier than it has ever been. Each time you share your joy, someone else gets to connect with you and it might be the connection that saves their life by inspiring them to wake up and live and share their own personal joy. Sharing your joy and passion is the best gift you can bring to each day on this planet!
Taking the first step by blogging, honoring my writers soul has given me the answer to my scared negative friends, most of us will not support ourselves & families with our passion. There is great value in finding your passion and having a day job. It is where you will draw strength on the difficult, challenging days life will hand you. It is what you will cling to and turn to when life is beating you down.
Honoring our passion & using our special gifts changes our experience on this earth. If you haven't figured out what your passion is, I recommend you start find people who have and hang out with them, often. Watching & listening to them tell you all the exciting and cool stuff they are a part of and doing should help you find one new thing to try.
You have to be actively living to find your passion.
If you don't have cool active people in your life, get some. Go online & find some local groups to visit. Try new things.
In Gabrielle Bernstein's book "Miracles Now" she writes that one of her Kundalini masters told her that "90 percent of the practice was just showing up to class or sitting on the mat." page 93, 94 Miracle Message #39 Just Show Up.
If you aren't ready to go out and try new things, figure out what causes are important to you. What topic has a group you can volunteer at? Groups that support people in need or at risk always need volunteers to help. Aren't ready for people interaction? These same groups also need envelopes stuffed, databases repaired, & filing and scanning.
If even that is too big & scary, remember that every day, all day you interact with people and the energy you bring is your responsibility. Choose to be aware of your presence and offer kindness.
For any of you who are waiting for the universe to tell you to proceed, this is the universe speaking through me this morning and it asked me to let you know that you are safe to proceed; you are loved and supported and will find the joy you have been searching for if you will just take that first small step forward.
If you are presented with a moment to tell someone to follow their dream, take it and speak the words to them. Be that voice of assurance that they have been waiting on.
What one small step can you take today towards your dream?
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