Today my Angel Card was Listen.
"You've received this card because the Angels wish to get their message through to you.
They ask that you talk less and listen more.
Give your worries over to the Angels and trust that they've heard your prayer. If it seems like they're not answering your prayer it's probably because you are not listening.
Avoid noisy environments. Turn off the tv and radio. Be still and listen."
I know I am not alone in how difficult it is to take or create the time for self care, let alone just for listening.
I am going to admit a painful truth that I don't like to really acknowledge, I don't like to listen because I would rather pretend I don't know what to do. My guts and my skin react in very clear ways when I choose to ignore my body and my internal compass. I would rather allow myself to believe that I can't hear my Angels or my own inner voice. I keep so busy and so distracted so that I can ignore having to make decisions. Then I find that I can't sleep, my head hurting, my stomach aching, my scalp, my back and my stomach and my legs itching like crazy. I am such a pro at avoidance that I just keep scratching and popping ibuprofen to stop the pain until my body quits.
I am actively working on surrender and listening. Listening to my body and surrendering to staying in this moment, not worrying about the ramifications to infinity. I hear the Serenity Prayer in my head at least once a day.
While it isn't pretty to admit, I know I am not alone. I worry and stress and ignore and keep moving forward rather than stop and make the course corrections I know are needed. My friends know this to be true of me and they call me on this regularly.
Today I will take some time to be quiet and just breathe and see what comes into my head.
Today I will not stress myself out in Future Tripping Land. I will steer clear of the What If Forrest.
I will listen and just breathe it all in.
That is the only request the Angels have made of me today.