While I did sleep, it was punctuated with bouts of waking up to revisit the events at court yesterday.
By the end of the night yesterday, it all felt like a dream.
After almost two years of being told by the state & my ex that there was nothing I could do to collect the alimony, the events yesterday still seem unreal.
I am trying to stay in this moment and be grateful and not wander into the what-if forest of how this all will work in reality. Damn that is really difficult to do.
I am trying to catch myself each time I TRY to figure out what the payment or retribution for this gift will be & for how long, to stop & exhale loudly. While this is obnoxious to have to hear all day, it is my go to surrender. Surrender is the word of the day.
My Angel Card this morning is Relationship.
"You are now out of the Forrest & entering an area filled with light & beauty."
Thank you & Amen!