My Angel card yesterday was Entrepreneur. What is interesting about receiving this card yesterday is that the night prior I had dinner with one of my girlfriends and she had noticed that I have been posting items talking about the downside and awfulness of being an entrepreneur. To read some really accurate descriptions of the neurosis of entrepreneurship check out James Altucher on Facebook. He is not for the faint of heart, but neither is running a business.
Anyhow, she noted that I had been posting negative ideas of what being an entrepreneur. Then she reminded me that most of what I am feeling is because I have been living someone else's dream. Everything feels forced and hard because this isn't my baby. She suggested that I keep an open mind regarding how easy and worth it the effort would feel if I was managing my own dream.
Then I wake up and my Angels remind me again that "You have the ideas, the drive, and the self discipline required for entrepreneurial work. Ease out of your present job by moonlighting with your desired business idea. Your ideas for business are sound. Fully commit to succeeding in your new business."
The other interesting item is that she suggested I start a book club. Instead of sitting around until I can save the money needed to purchase the licensing for what I want to teach and guide, why not just start doing something that gets me brainstorming with other like minded people. I feel like this is the "Ease out of your present job by moonlighting with your desired business idea."
I am still kicking this around in my head...
Then today my Angels send me Be Honest With Yourself.
"You received this card as a gentle confrontation because the Angels know you've been hiding from your true feelings. You probably have been afraid that if you admit how you honestly felt you'd be overwhelmed with feelings & faced with making some necessary changes you feel unprepared for. The situation will improve if you face it squarely. Avoid getting caught up in the illusion that 'this is the way it is'."
I have been caught up in the illusion that "this is the way it is" and that nothing is going to change, so just keep soldiering on. So much so that my sleeping mind is giving me very vivid dreams in hopes that I will wake up from the illusion and see things as they really are.
I am taking time to listen and to make small changes towards my goals. Change is hard.