Honestly I completely spaced today was a Wednesday, until just a moment ago. I love Wednesday's so much that I am currently stockpiling photos for future rump days, and yet I spaced it today. I spent 20 minutes the other night looking for cute Christmas rump photos.
I haven't written much the past two weeks as my life has been a little, well really a lot charged & chaotic. I have a great deal of change happening and far too much uncertainty arriving in my life. Nothing of which I can really write about, so I feel very blocked.
Until this storm passes, I will just keep writing about what tools are keeping me semi sane right now. I am focusing a great deal on being aware of my breathing and trying to eat small healthy food so I don't send my already sensitive system into ulcers again.
I am currently battling the ever irritating eczema itchy skin rash from head to toe. For most of my life, the itchiness has been on my lower legs, my scalp and my neck. Honestly, I am just one more minute away from turning into a bear and finding a prickly tree and busting out some moves. For you lovely people who will send me ideas on how to deal with this, I have not introduced any new food or products into my house. Jason has made me a salve with bee's wax, olive oil, coconut oil, lavender oil and some other essential oils that are supposed to be good for irritated skin. I also have steroid creme which helps, but with repeated use makes my skin feel weird. I also have Sarna anti-itch lotion and Benadryl pills that I resort to when I start unconsciously scratching.
What I am having to accept and this is difficult to really accept, is that I am so stressed and so repressively stressed, that my body has started it's fight against itself. It appears my superhero ability is disillusion & denial.
I have excelled at pushing through, making do, putting up with, settling for, muddling through, pretending to fix, and accepting a level of unhappiness or anger or frustration that my body has literally turned against itself in the past two years with a vengeance greater than in all of the previous 41 years.
I started this post two days ago and just noticed that I never actually posted it the other day. I got to work with the intention of finishing it and sat down and noticed we had like 5 emails every 10 seconds hitting our work email. Then Jason received a call from our bank regarding a wire transfer we were trying to send. Turns out we were being attacked online. I let Jason know we had not sent out any wire transfers and without the verification the hacker was unable to process the wire transfer. Our IT guy called us and told us we had been compromised. Both Jason and I had been on-line at work doing Christmas shopping with our personal debit cards the day prior.
So instead of finishing my post, we were in our cars, heading to the closest bank to cancel our existing debit cards, verify any purchases that were being made and closing out the business account and opening a new one. It turns out the hacker had created a wire transfer for $9000.00. He could have done this several days in a row before we sat down on Monday to start writing check to vendors and owners and realized we were wiped out. We are so blessed that our bank, ENT a local credit union, knew that this looked suspicious and called for the phone verification code. The rest of the day was a blur of having our computers cleaned, searching for the how it happened and rebuilding our system so business can be normal next week.
If you haven't already set up a daily maximum that can be transferred from your accounts and a phone password to verify on-line transfers, please do. Take the time to protect yourself and your money as best you can.
Happy Belated Rump Day!
I hope that you have a really lovely Friday night!