I cringed a little bit when I flipped it over. Another hard card. I feel like I get the same 12 or so cards over and over again, but this week has been full of new cards. Truly relevant cards with the specific focus that I need with the chaos whirling around me. Every card I have received this week has been a first time card for me.
While I battle with who or what I think my higher power is or isn't, I wholeheartedly believe in Angels. I have since I was a little girl. I believe that the people's physical bodies die but I do not believe that is the end of it. I don't know that I buy into the winged celestial beings, but I do believe we are always energy, in this life and in the next. I believe some Angels choose to stay with people and that they help us if we will let them.
"You may have been afraid that if you did admit how you honestly felt, you'd be overwhelmed with feelings and faced with making some necessary changes that you feel unprepared for. Yet, the Angels assure you that it's healthiest to face this situation with honesty. They will help you with your emotions, relationships, and any support you need to make positive changes. However, the Angels remind you to focus only upon your desires and not upon your fears so that you can attract the former and not the latter.
The situation will improve when you face it squarely. You deserve better.
Trust your own feelings even if others don't agree. Don't give away your power to others. Avoid getting caught up in the illusion that 'this is the way it is'.
Don't give up." Additional meaning from the accompanying book Doreen Virtue Angel Oracle Cards
I have received some very pointed guidance this week from my Angel Cards. I know I keep portraying them as screaming at me, but the reality is they are being direct. It just feels like screaming because I am resisting reality right now.
Listen, Daydream, Be Honest with Yourself.
That sums up what is happening. As I have said this week, I can feel the change coming. I can feel the buzz, energy, pull, and the weight of this shift. I think I have been so frazzled the past four months that I am so tired and weary that I am being more receptive to what is happening around me.
I am very good at pretending that everything is ok. I have been caught up in believing that if I just keep working hard and keep making small steps forward that given time it would all fall into place.
The message that I feeling from today's card is so easy & true, I have been afraid to admit how I feel because in doing so, I do have to feel things and make changes. Trust your own feelings is hard for me when decisions involve people you love. It is so easy to forget what your gut was telling you as you talk and listen to other people.
It is still very stressful for me to stand firm in my feelings, because while feelings are not facts, they are as real and powerful as it gets. I am still very new to just stating my feelings and not feeling I have to open them up to discussion or dissection.
My power is in not defending and arguing my feelings.
As the weekend rolls in, I will be spending some time inside my head listening, meditating, and trying to be honest with myself.