Prior to yesterday morning, I had never chosen this Angel Card.
I shuffled multiple times, then pulled the middle part of the deck and split it onto the outsides of the cards and shuffled again.
I don't just pull the top card, I spread the entire deck out in front of me and normally pull the first card where it breaks or falls. Weird to get the same card again this morning. Not really weird because I believe in coincidence, but weird in why again today? What didn't I get yesterday? What didn't I understand?
I know I am terribly stubborn, and a slow hands on learner, but I am really trying my best to surrender to not worrying about the money or when I am going to find a new job. Of course I would enjoy it if money was coming in and was enough to take care of my family. Obviously I would love to find a new job asap. How do you not worry about these things?
Each time I catch myself worrying or stressing the future, I try to stop myself and breathe and relax, but these are big stress issues. They pop up often throughout the day.
As best I know how, I have released my worry about money and a new job. I am capable and able to work, so I know I will find a new job. Maybe two part time jobs with really cool companies, where I get to do really fun and cool stuff?
I am heading up to hear my little girl sing in her Holiday school performance, so I have a little time on the drive up and down to think about this cards meaning.
My girlfriend has the same deck and we were comparing what we each normally get repeats of and damn if we don't get a lot of the same cards. She had never received many the cards I get weekly and I have never received most of the cards she showed me.
Like I said, weird. Needs some time to think about this card.